In the Fall semester of 2016,
I asked Jessica Wilson, the administrator for the Georgia Writers Association,
if she could recommend a handful of new poetry books. Her kind and generous
response included I watched
you disappear, by Anya Krugovoy Silver, which won the Georgia Author of the
Year Award (GAYA) in 2015. I soon began reading Silver’s 2016 publication, From Nothing and found myself suspended between the
worlds of late 19th and
early 20th century art
and, at times, unfamiliar fairy tales. I suspect that what will keep me picking
this book up again and again is that I’ve found a bit of my own true north in
the poet’s reluctance to romanticize childhood in favor of celebrating the weft
and twill of adulthood.
Speaking briefly of her
journey, Dr. Krugovoy Silver relates, “I was born in Swarthmore,
Pennsylvania to a Russian/Ukrainian father and Swiss/German mother. My
father was a Russian professor and I learned my love of language from the
multilingual and multicultural environment in which I was raised. I grew
up in a home that valued learning, creativity, and questions over material
success. Literature and church were the two sacred poles of my childhood.
I started scribbling stories early, but as an adult, I’ve published three books
of poetry, The Ninety-Third
Name of God, I Watched You Disappear, and From
Nothing. I have always wanted to be a teacher, and currently teach English
literature at Mercer University. I live in downtown Macon with my
husband, who also teaches at Mercer, and my son. I have been living with
inflammatory breast cancer since 2004.”
JoAnn LoVerde-Dropp: At its core, this
collection of poems is a quiet rebellion against the myth that innocence alone
is able to shoulder and shrug off malevolence. These poems take the stance that
naiveté (projected or clung to) has no place in womanhood with a capital “W.”
Was this a deliberate message?
Anya Krugovoy Silver: It wasn’t a conscious theme as I wrote
individual poems, but I noticed the focus on sensuality, and a refusal to
conflate innocence with goodness, appearing and reappearing as I put the
manuscript together. That’s especially true in a poem like “St. Paul’s Letter
to the Ephesians, Lent.” I have long resisted the Platonic binary between
body and soul, and in that particular poem, I reject the neo-Platonist Paul’s
assumption that sensual desire is sinful or opposed to holiness: “Not to live
in the passions of the flesh--/how grim and arid the light we’re promised.” I
like to call this collection of poems my “red book” because there are so many
red images throughout it. The color, for me, signifies vitality and
energy, blood and life. Although there are many poems about mortality in
the book, I also wanted to make room for the fullness and lusciousness of
lived, bodily experience.
JoAnn LoVerde-Dropp: Your newest collection, From Nothing, also includes several ekphrastic
pieces based on art by early 20th century
painters such as Modersohn-Becker, Nolde, Chagall, Klimt, and Toulouse-Lautrec
which reflect this “bodily experience.” The paintings and corresponding poems
explore our sensual natures. How did these works of art come to serve as
a springboard into the conversation about sensuality and what is your personal
connection to this time period?
Anya Krugovoy Silver: Expressionist
painting and art from the turn of the last century in general happen to be
among my favorite art. I particularly like German painters like
Modersohn-Becker, Nolde, Köllwitz, Werefkin. Each of these painters, and
the others you mentioned, sought to paint the human body in a non-romanticized
way. With the possible exception of Klimt, they painted ordinary people
with ordinary bodies, and sometimes erotically (Chagall and Toulouse-Lautrec,
especially). Modersohn-Becker painted German farmers without turning them
into symbols of “the land” or “good, honest people.” She simply painted
them as she saw them, including what she perceived to be their individual
spirits. I love Kollwitz’s famous quote that “The motifs I was able to select from this milieu (the workers' lives)
offered me, in a simple and forthright way, what I discovered to be beautiful.”
One of my goals in this book was to write about the body—the ill body, the
sexual body—honestly, without making the body either grotesque or
precious. I wanted to always respect the body’s, even the dead body’s,
integrity and dignity. The Expressionists whom I admire the most do that,
so they were models to me, in a way. They painted human beings neither
heroically or fastidiously.
JoAnn
LoVerde-Dropp: These same
long strokes and subtle countenances that favor insight rather than minutiae
are inherent in your own work. For example, several impressions of your father
appear in “The Christmas Hat,” “Wake,” “In the Sanatorium,” and “Partings.”
He is, at once, a beloved parent seeking refuge from his demons, a man
who cannot articulate his own suffering, and one who only found peace in death.
Do you feel that this is more kinship or craft in regard to the
Expressionist painters?
Anya Krugovoy Silver: Wow—that’s very insightful.
I had never thought of a biographical reason for my love of expressionist art,
but I think you’re right. My father and I loved each other very much, and
he was very proud of my poetry. At the same time, in hindsight I would say
that he experienced PTSD from the murder of his father during the Stalinist
purges and from other experiences in the Soviet Union and in exile during and
after the Second World War He would begin to tell me stories and then
explode in rage at the memories of what he’d seen. When I look at
expressionist art, and its focus on the turbulence of the inner life, and about
how much can’t be articulated or understood by others, I definitely see my
father’s face. There is a loneliness in the figures of that art that I
think resides in many people.
JoAnn LoVerde-Dropp: Fairy tales are woven through From
Nothing. One might think that they are close relatives, but in this case
the speakers of these poems seem to admonish the mythological ‘happily ever
after’ while conveying childhood memories that do not mollify young skepticism.
In fact, the speaker in Snow White cautions against romanticizing death and
recognizes her own early folly. What inspired you to use fairy tales to promote
the conversation addressing innocence in this collection?
Anya Krugovoy Silver: Fairy tales were the first
form of literature that I encountered in my life. My parents had a big
blue book of the Grimms’ fairy tales that they read to me as a child.
I’ve continued to be obsessed with fairy tales, as so many writers are, because
beneath a seemingly obvious and predictable narrative, they can be analyzed in
countless ways. I believe that reading and thinking about fairy tales can
help humans find their values and vocations, to reach into their own minds, and
I read many of them allegorically. For example, I read the story of
Cinderella as a tale about how one can survive grief; the romance is incidental
to the real purpose of the story. It’s true that fairy tales posit a generally
benign universe; things almost always end up happily for the
protagonists. I want readers to question those happy endings.
Specifically, serious trauma can’t simply be overcome by meeting a prince with
a castle. Pain stays in one’s memory, in some form or another, forever.
I was consciously writing
against the dominant cultural mood that one should “get over” grief and “move
on” from pain. I can’t stand that superficial notion of healing, and it’s
often used to bully people who have gone through cancer or some other kind of
violence. As someone who has lived with cancer, I reject pink ribbon
“survivor” culture. My fairy tale poems, like “Nettle Shirts,” “Maid
Maleen” and “Snow White” each argues that the concept of “getting past” cancer
is absurd and puts a huge burden on a sick person. I think that idea
could be applied to anyone who has suffered abuse, assault, or violence.
And finally, I see in some
popular culture, especially music and social media, a glorification of dying
“young and beautiful.” That’s always prettier in songs than in real life.
JoAnn LoVerde-Dropp: Is your answer to a more
genuine healing process found in the poem, “Four Prayers for Forgiveness”?
Because it is here that the origins of wounds are pursued while shifting
perspectives still allow pain its rightful place.
Anya Krugovoy Silver: “Four Prayers for
Forgiveness” grew out of my Sufi meditation classes. I’m trying to forgive a
lot in the poem: cancer, my body, myself, God. For me, life with
chronic illness is best lived when one is able to find peace and joy in the
present. I realize that’s a cliché, and easier said than done, but for
me, happiness is an active practice and choice. It’s definitely not the
emotion that comes most easily in the face of suffering; happiness is difficult.
So the forgiveness that I describe in the poem is a forgiveness of my cancer
cells, which are only doing what they’re biologically programmed to do, and a
forgiveness of my body for endangering me. I attempt to look beyond
illness, and I refuse to let cancer define my life. I choose to be fully
alive. The last lines “I am absorbed like a drop of water/into a bottle of
perfume without a bottom./I open my eyes and all is golden” express how I want
to live completely immersed in life. That’s also one reason that I
included several love poems in the book.
JoAnn LoVerde-Dropp: Before we close, I’d like
to discuss the book’s title poem, “from nothing” which is preceded by the
lines, “I am re-begot / Of absence, darkness, death: things which are not.” from
Donne’s “A Nocturnal upon St. Lucy’s Day.”
FROM
NOTHING
Again and again, from nothingness I’m born.
Each death I witness makes me more my own.
I imagine each excess line of mine erased,
each muscle shredded, each bone sheared.
One day, my spine’s long spar will snap,
ribs tumbling loose; my face will droop and drop.
Then I’ll be re-begot – the air will shimmer
and my molecules will vault, emerging free.
From darkening days, the light will surge and flee.
The poem itself is absolutely
void of sentiment or affect, thus setting the tone for the rest of the
collection, while the slant rhyme and final true rhyme imply a belief in a
sense of order. How has your own belief in “the order of things” transformed
since your cancer diagnosis, and is this poem most reflective of that sense?
Anya Krugovoy Silver: When one’s life feels out
of control because of illness or trauma, it’s helpful, in a therapeutic sense,
to wrest order from circumstance. Some people do that through religion;
others conceptualize their lives as journeys, with illness as part of the
meaning and self-actualization of their time on earth. In my case, poetry
enables me to take a chaotic experience and fix it on the page, to give it line
lengths, images, and sounds and to do what I want with it. I reestablish
a sense of control by giving experiences the meaning that I want them to have, no matter how inchoate
that meaning is.
In “From Nothing,” and in my
poetry in general, I am more and more drawn to internal rhyme, slant rhyme, and
sound effects such as assonance and consonance, to emphasize a sense of
order. For example, I used the slant rhyme of “snap and drop” and the
alliteration of “droop and drop” consciously. I like Edna St. Vincent
Millay’s assertion that “I will put Chaos into fourteen lines/And keep him
there.” Ultimately, if there is any underlying order in the world, I don’t
think that human beings are privy to it. I discern no order whatsoever in
the deaths of my friends, or in the daily tragedies and disasters of the
world. All humans can do is create our own individual structures with
which to deal with the unknown. That’s why poetry and art will always be
essential to the experience of being human.
Anya Silver has published
three books of poetry with the Louisiana State University Press. She has
been published in numerous journals and anthologies, most recently in Best American Poetry 2016 (Scribner) and The Turning Aside: The
Kingdom Book of Contemporary Christian Poetry (Poiema Poetry). Her work has
been featured in Ted Kooser’s column American
Life in Poetry, on Garrison Keillor’s The
Writer’s Almanac, and as an Academy of American Poets Poem-a-Day. She
is currently completing her fourth poetry manuscript. She has taught for
eighteen years at Mercer University. She is also a metastatic breast
cancer thriver.
JoAnn LoVerde-Dropp is a Lecturer at Kennesaw State
University in Kennesaw, Georgia. She
received her MFA in Creative writing from Spalding University in Louisville,
Kentucky, and her poetry has appeared in Gargoyle Magazine, Public.Republic.net,
and Bigger than They Appear: Anthology of Short Poems.